It Won't Be Like This For Long
It took me forever to pick a song for this post! I try to find something catchy that epitomizes my feelings on whatever I'm sharing. The song "It Won't Be Like This For Long" popped in my head (while driving of course, lol) and it just seemed to perfectly fit my theme du jour. Who knew Darius Rucker would have new life as a country singer after Hootie & the Blowfish?! Crazy.
I do my best thinking in the car. Previously I would have a hour sitting in traffic of pure, unallocated thinking on a daily basis to get from work to SP. The car is where I work out my feelings / problems. Since switching to a WFH-based gig that time is significantly reduced which is an obvious blessing but a bit sad from a thoughts perspective!
I'm very much NOT a morning person though I've been trying to embrace the morning workout. I was able to pry myself out of my warm bed Friday morning and get to SPiit (high intensity interval insanity, Studio Poise style) for 6am. Oddly for that time of morning I hit traffic en route and I found myself thinking “Fuck, it's freezing! I can't wait for spring! Let's just fast forward through winter.” followed by “OMG I have so many meetings today I can't wait for 5pm” followed by “I hate dating, why can't I find my future husband NOW?”.
Why am I wishing away my life? A few months ago when it was hot as hell I was praying for legging /sweater weather. Any time I felt stuck in my career I would pray for the the opportunity I've recently been afforded to build something from scratch. After dating my fair share of losers I vowed I would trust the timing of my life and accept that my perfect person isn't ready just yet. He has something to learn, I have something to learn - whatever the case may be we're not meant to be together at this exact moment in time.
Why can't I enjoy the season I'm in? Why am I always striving to be somewhere else?
When I was little my mom used to tell me to appreciate the age I am because I'll never be that age again. Ha! I was rushing even back then. Wanting to grow up and go to college and get a job and be successful. Now that I've hit those milestones I can't tell you how often I long to be 8 where my biggest concern was my Barbie playdate with my friends or 14 where my biggest worry was the article I was writing for the school newspaper. Simpler times that I did not fully savor at the moment.
I have taken a break from reading self-help style blogs, sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the information and suggestions and tips for being more enlightened. Sitting in the parking lot after my kickass Friday morning sweat session I was doing a search in my Gmail for something and I came across this post from Danielle LaPorte that had gone unread. It was EXACTLY what I needed to hear.
It's so hard to slow down and soak in the moment I'm living in. I want more, I want it now. I don't want winter, I don't want the growing pains of new jobs, I don't want to have lackluster dates. I wanted to OWN my life, feel totally on top of my job and have someone amazing to come home to and cook dinners for and go on adventures with. But alas, that's not my season. I'm incubating in my egg, begrudgingly. Forcing myself to hatch prematurely will just result in a half baked *Sam - and that's not what I want, obviously.
So I'll practice patience (fucking patience, haunting me like a bad penny). I will appreciate the chilly air, sweaters, blankets etc. I'll appreciate the time I get to spend with family and friends and solo perfecting recipes and pinning items to my Pinterest boards for my future and watching Gilmore Girls (obsessed!). I'll appreciate this season for all it has to offer and look forward to what it has to teach me.
How do you embrace your current season when it's not your favorite? Please share, I'd love to hear it! ❤