Wish I Knew You

Wish I Knew You

You know those songs that end up on the radio then get stuck in your head for MONTHS (cough thatfreakingDespacito song, cough)....”Wish I Knew You” is in that category but the more I hear it, the more I love it and the more I apply it to my life. Also the Revivalists are actually a really amazing band, I downloaded both their albums and have not been disappointed!

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“I wish I knew you when I was young
We could've got so high
Now we're here it's been so long
Two strangers in the bright lights
Oh I hope you don't mind
We can share my mood yeah
Two strangers in the bright lights
I wish I knew you
I wish I knew you
Oh I wish I knew you when I was young”

I don't smoke (obviously) but I've totally had this sentiment with friends, mentors, potential future husbands etc. You meet someone, and you click on this level you can't explain. They get you, they remember your little idiosyncrasies and you just vibe. And as your relationship grows you think “Gaaaah I wish I met this person sooner”. You’ve been there right?

With both my best friend’s I often think how much more enjoyable high school would have been if I had them by my side back then (I met them both when I was 21 - one through college and one at the job I had after college). We would have been instant friends - and I could have navigated those formative years with them by my side. Alas, the universe didn’t have that in the cards and I had to make it through high school on my own. Now, don’t get me wrong - I had friends but none that remained long after graduation. I was never one of those people who had the first friend I ever made etc.

With my mentor at work I sometimes wonder if our dynamic could have evolved had I not been the person I was when I met him. I had already obtained my PMP, I was spearheading all kind of internal initiatives and I was a get shit done kinda person by the time we met. Could I still have learned so much from him if I hadn't been opened to self improvement by the people before him?

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I recently started a new job (working for said fabulous mentor) and I'm excited to say I found a fabulous little niche of people who get my quirks and sarcasm and totally dish it right back. But I see these girls, at work or in the gym or out shopping and they work together and have been besties for years and have similar career paths and sometimes I wish I had that. I wish I knew I wanted to do this type of work sooner and maybe I could have had that built that type of bond. But maybe not? One of my favorite bosses, Michelle, always told me ”leaders, like eagles, don't flock. That's why you find them one at a time”. It's hard sometimes though to accept that you're a leader when you crave the companionship of a pack.

Thinking out loud... maybe I wish I could have known this version of myself back then? Wouldn't that be a trip!

This morning while doing cardio I was thinking about all the guys I've met in the the wrong stages of my life. Had I been the person I am now 2 years ago or 5 years ago, things could have been different. I wish I could have known them back then! I wish I could have a moment like in the show “Being Erica” (cheesy romantic comedy with a sci fi twist on the Canadian network CBC) where I could go back and do just one thing differently, knowing what I know now and see the results. Would I still be here? Would I have ended up someplace totally different? Would I still be happy?

Now I fully subscribe to “everything happens at the time it's supposed to happen”, really I do. It's just nice to pause every so often and think “I wish I had this person who's so instrumental at a different point in this crazy life of mine” - because they add so much value, because they've taught me so much etc. . Likewise it's also nice to realize how far you've come and how much better you can tackle life's challenges!  <3

 

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